CrisW Blog

Hello World!  Welcome to CrisW Blog!  Let me be the first one to create a blog here, at CLG Share Forum! ) (it’s getting moved!  This is being republished on the new location, but keeping the original publication date)

I used to be a blogger, I blogged daily for about three years.  Blogging about basically nothing, but just about the thoughts that went through my head that day.  While simultaneously learning about online marketing and social media marketing.  And OMG, the things I learned and the courses I paid for in order to learn was by the thousands of dollars! I learned a whole lot of things that “guru-hood” could make a lot of money from.

Highly technical skills, like how to get a specific page or article rank high on the search engines, without paying a single cent to paid advertisements.

Or how to get thousands of views on a video.  I tested this for one one FB video that I also created for a demo website.  I think that had about 4,000+ views in a day.

So if I wanted to test my own acquired (learned and paid for) skills, I knew for a fact, for myself, that what I learned AND applied, worked.

I also got to personally meet a whole lot of these “successful” online marketers during conferences, when we met every three months around the United States.  From the training I paid for, to attend those events, I am glad they all encouraged to create all the Social Media accounts, to tie into our own blogs, which the gurus were teaching, in order to see for ourselves, and learn for ourselves, how those worked!

And we were taught to take a lot of videos and pictures and then upload them to FB.  For “social proof”. Yes, we did all gather in conferences and all learned from each other.

I was on “learn and apply” mode all the time.  I wrote about all of them.

The highest rank, in terms of website traffic, which I got to my personal website, was about top 50,000+ in the U.S., and 800,000+ globally.

It was all organic traffic going to my personal blog.  No ads.

For me to have seen that myself, is really like experiencing looking at a big boulder – I cannot pretend that I did not see it afterwards.

Online marketing works.  And I met and learned from the very people that also learned these skills, and then they monetized it into expensive product courses, and sold them as “Digital Informational Products”.

Big money changed hands!

My personal blog that time, was about what I was also learning.  I also wrote a lot of my own personal stories and thoughts and lessons I learned along the way.  I didn’t realize back then, that what I was actually writing, people were looking for.

I met another blogger, a speaker, in those conferences, he was tagged as a real high ranking guru person who had a knack for ranking anything.  But he was using different software (that he was also selling).  After his speech, we chatted for a bit.  Because I said one of my many blog posts / articles was able to rank high, after 24 hours, without any software.

He got intrigued.  He asked me for my website, so he said he can take a look.  He also asked me to be his FB friend.  🙂

There’s many ways to get with this online marketing.

I’ve always worked with “simple” and just blogged from my heart.

At that time, I was also attending postgraduate courses that I was invited to attend.  It was a small group – to document our courses, and our discourses and discussions for the benefit of future scientists.

My drive for learning, I can safely say, that there is nothing on this planet that cannot be learned.

The brain is a gift from God that is an awful thing to waste.

My blog was personal, and scientific, or experiential.  It went all over the place, with no structure really in the articles I wrote.

More like a “reality blog”, LOL!

I didn’t post much on FB, I have a personality of a dial tone in social media.

I just posted links there of my daily posts.  I didn’t really care for social media much.  For me back then, it was an experiment.  I was certified in biomedical informatics.  An Information Scientist.  An informatician.  A Data Scientist.

And so that was how I entered the “online marketing” world.  Because I was ignorant in social media and online marketing, so I learned what and how that worked.

I cannot unlearn that.

Then the deeper I got, I then wasn’t too happy with what I was learning, and then seeing how people, behind their computers, can get stalked big time.  By software.  By algorithms.  By cookies.  By scripts.  By pixels.

And then I stopped when I got too tired of getting stalked.

So I got quiet for about four years.

I still wrote, but sprinkled my articles here and there.

And then I realized I should not have stopped and allowed my enemies to defeat me.

Their goal was for me to shut up.

“To those who are given much, much is also expected.”

God did not allow me to learn all these things just to shut up about them.

I have had a colorful life, traveled a whole lot, and have experienced the full gamut of life’s ups and downs.

And we all have lessons to share.

So I got quiet from the “online” world, but wasn’t really quiet with my “offline” world.

I still did my very best at what I can do as a follower of Christ in my dealings with people or strangers, no matter where I was.

For a true and genuine follower of Christ, I felt and thought that I have to be always mindful that the attention should never be about me, and what I was doing.

The attention MUST always be, what Jesus wants us to be doing, and that in so doing, the attention would be for people to SEE Jesus, because of what the Holy Spirit directs us to do, to help others, to help a stranger. The glory goes to Him and not to us.

When I have lost everything material that I have ever worked for, God allowed those personal catastrophes to happen to me for His own reasons.

I clung to Him.

Each

and

every

time.

And I have personally experienced how God always turns everything for our good.  “For those who love God, and those who are called according to His purpose.”

God allows bad things to happen, like gold goes through fire.

It’s the purifying cost of pain.

Following Jesus Christ, there’s a cost to following Him.

We get purged.

We get tested.

We get mocked for our faith.

We get rejected.

We can also get confused a lot of times, and when I do, I really much more strongly pray for wisdom and guidance.  And then when I get “that type of peace” in a certain decision, I then go with it.

I have been viciously attacked on the internet, people posting as me, or creating social media accounts posting as me, or getting my old articles scraped and stolen, the email addresses that I used to use heavily spammed, or getting sold on the darkweb, my personal details mixed with lies, to deceive people.

When I also saw how businesses are monetizing my name, (yes, a nobody like me), that’s just plain depravity already.

So, I decided I’d come out again and get stuff online again.

Because it gets really old too, when I see falsehoods written about me.

Those types of portals don’t care when they slander people.

If they cannot find anything about you, they’d put your name on a template.

They will have their day in God’s court.

FOR ME, I should just focus on what my assignment is, while I am still here on earth.

I have written looong articles about the doxxing that happened to me.  And that was that.

I continued on with the Bible App project.  Many horrible things also happened the past two years.  But when I see and notice how those are just getting thrown my way to thwart my efforts at completing this project.  And that was that.

I still continued to seek fellowship with other Christians too, but it’s challenging, all I can ask for is prayers.

I even went back to the Online Church I used to serve at, as a “Prayer Host” where you are that person behind the scene, when someone would click “Live Prayer”, you pray for that specific person.  Typing your prayer out, for the other person to see.

I left that church, because of the things I learned that they were doing.  I said why I left, I wasn’t an employee, I was just a volunteer for a couple of years. And what happened to me while there, was very wrong.

There’s a very thin line between “serving in the Name of Jesus” and “serving in the name of an organization”.

I can serve in the Name of Jesus, as I feel led to.

When it becomes an issue of “control”, and “social control”, then that’s when the power of the Holy Spirit manifests itself, in a sense of CLARITY in your mind.

False doctrines, taught by false teachers, can only produce what?

False converts.

For me, it wasn’t a crisis of faith.

It was a crisis of the church-ianity, as I saw it first hand.

One thing GREAT with my decision of following Christ, where ever He leads me, is when I left the religion I grew up in.

And the people in it.

I only described why, and that was how “it all got filtered”.

There are still a few people, who are still in that religion, who still “consider me their friend”.

Like they still greet me “Merry Christmas” or greet me on my birthday.

Jesus said, “Whoever loves ___ more than Me, is not worthy of Me.”

He wants 100% of us.

And I know that is a true test of His true followers.

God first.

The first version of the Forum that I set up, was for a place where Christians can fellowship with each other, without being pitched or guilted out of their 10% income, through the “tithing” that the church leaders should really be teaching, according to the bible, in its purity.

And it was from that same church where the forum got super spammed.  It was done by a “prayer host” from Mexico. (Whom I thought was a fellow worker in Christ).

That sad experience among, two other sad experiences that happened to me while serving in that online church, was God’s warning for me, to just get out.

What I experienced and learned, I also shared with the Team that I was serving with.  I taught them exactly what I saw. They installed a “script” on their website that records people’s computer screens.

How did I know that?  That’s one of the things I also learned in Online Marketing.  That type of service, are for those companies, who want to “see” what their website visitors are doing on their site.

That’s for businesses though, and when I saw that same software AT that online church’s website?

I was furious.  There was a Software Engineer (SE) that messaged me and I called them out on it.  Because of the privacy breach that people requesting for “Live Private One on One Prayer”, can get recorded too, with that type of a script installed on a website.

The SE agreed with me, and he said it wasn’t supposed to be there.

I said anyone can remove that, it only can take a few seconds to remove it.  I knew where and how to remove it.

But months, and then years later, it was still there.  (I know where to look for it on websites).

After I left, my Prayer Host Team members also left.

Truth is incontrovertible.  Ignorance may deride it, malice may attack it, but in the end, there it just is.

When I started going back, this year, I noticed that the code was no longer there.

I was looking for other familiar Names, and Hosts, I saw only four of them, from other Teams, who are still there.  Some of them remembered me and a whole lot of new hosts are asking me if I wanted to be a Host again.

I just would say, no, I got called elsewhere.

I feel for those Prayer Hosts too.  They are the ones responsible for getting that online church going.

I pray that those “new in the faith” do not fall away from the faith, if they find something that’s wrong, with the way a church is being run.

One of the reasons why I started the Bible App project was because I noticed how we all need also, an online bible, for those times that we are away from our homes, it is easier to read, and also to share scripture.

You find the verse, you share it, and you send the link.

The recipient can also read the bible verse themselves.

I thought that it was a herculean project, that was how I found that online church.  It was because of their bible app.  I thought it was great, that I didn’t have to do one myself.

What ended up happening was I got invited to join as a Prayer Host.  And I did so, for I think about two years.  A volunteer.  Non – paid.

I learned a lot.  About my own struggles, and what God has pulled me out of.

And for those many countless people who reached out to “someone” who can pray with them, in their moment of need …

From someone who is thinking about committing suicide, to someone who is about to get an abortion the next day, or someone being abused by a family member, or someone having an affair with someone, or an addict, or so many different struggles, we pray for them, or me being the one on the “one on one” prayer session, I prayed for that person.  To this day, I do not know where or how what I typed got typed, as I remembered bible verses, and then shared them with that person needing to see it, being typed, just for them to see.

God can use people like me, but He doesn’t need me.  He can always use somebody else.  But it was a humbling experience.  A whole lot of Christ Followers, need prayers too, as they get spiritually attacked more.

And so, when I felt like I was so broken, after two members of my family died recently, I remembered the “Prayer Hosts”.

So I reached back out to them, because I was at that point of desperation in my deep anguish.

I needed someone to pray with me and for me.

I was on the other side of the Prayer Equation.

And because I remembered, God allowed me to remember, to never paint a wide brush.  If we got hurt by someone in an organization, or a church, that they do NOT represent the church, or the organization.

These so called churches, are made up of men and women too, who are still all humans.  With bills to pay.

I just wish and pray that they don’t mislead people with false doctrines and watered-down Christianity.

Jesus Christ did not shed His Blood, only for it to be watered down by false teachers.

Do I now profess to be a true teacher?

NOPE.

I can only share, from the TRUE TEACHER, Jesus Christ.

Often those with the “messiah complex” shut up when they meet the True Messiah.

In another lifetime, I’ve experienced being a teacher too.  They call it different names.  Instructor, Subject Matter Expert (SME), Chief something, Department Head, etc. Those are just man made titles given to me to serve as a “label” of some sort of authority over a domain knowledge or domain area.

Not a big deal really.  That’s when I felt like an object most times.  Objectification is never a good thing.  It’s more like chief slave with some financial perks that massages one’s ego into thinking they “have arrived”.  It’s all vanity like in the book of Ecclesiastes.

When you lose it all and then follow Jesus Christ, then that would be the road like?

It is similar to what God allowed me to learn and accomplish on this website.

So the false rhetoric of some website owners and domain name owners that it takes a whole lot of money and resources to get a website going.

To house a “bible app”.

In another lifetime, I was an “Apple Developer”.

I learned how invasive an app can be programmed to be!

I didn’t want my tech skills which I paid for myself learning them, to be used for evil.

So there are things and projects that I will simply JUST NOT accept or do, even if I would get paid for it.

I wrote about me getting targeted and hacked to the point of gaining access to MY OWN personal cellphone.

Freaky.

So I ended up by default learning HOW I got hacked, when I hacked myself. 

The sad reality for me was, when I learned how much of our information are all actually just “up there in the cloud” they say… (the cloud just simply means, in some other computer server).

I wrote a code software snippet that I was able to extract my own text messages, thinking I was only going to extract with that effort, maybe about 2 years worth of text messages that that old phone had, since I learned, that by law, it gets stored for about 2 years.  You know, like the telecom companies’ software can do.  (I know a little bit about that from my Dad doing a project before on cell site towers, and also from my exhusband selling telco software).

The software I wrote for myself, I ran and was so shocked at how I was able to extract 5 years or so, worth of text messages.

From “the cloud”.

Then that’s how I realized all the more with deep sadness, how we are all getting monetized.  And how easy it was for ANY of us to get targeted.

When I shared my personal “findings” with a few of my friends, they asked, “hey, can you hack me too?”

Answer is, I then learned and knew that I “can” but “NO, I will never do that.  Period.”

That’s the line that a lot of highly technical people can decide to cross, or not cross.

I will not cross that line because I have the fear of God in me.

The people who cross that line, have decided to make themselves their little own god.

I know who my God is.

So then I just decided to share and warn others.

Others felt and thought I lost my mind.  But I didn’t really care.  I warned them anyway.

Just like I just told the truth after I left my former religion.  Or another former church where I served at.

That’s why God gave us brains.

For us to use.

If you see something wrong, what are we going to do about it?

Are we going to put up and shut up?

Are we going to walk away?

The bible teaches to “come out and be separate” when we see and learn stuff like that so that we do not continue to be “in deception”.

We get deceived, yes, that’s the tactic of the enemy.

Any form of darkness can be beat by pure old and simple light.

The LIGHT of God’s Words can clarify a whole lot of our own confusion these days.

I have also helped out in some dark disaster stricken environments, and I can only share what I myself have experienced.

The saving knowledge of the love and salvation of Jesus Christ.

My portals continue to be attacked by hackers, but it is THIS website, that they can never infiltrate.

So, I will simply just move my old articles.

Copy paste.  🙂

I have password protected all the Forums that I have Admin privileges at.

I have also removed former “Registered Users” and have banned known spammers who follow me around the internet.

I thought that the SH portal can house all the other articles, but then, it is “crawling” still in terms of average load times.

CLG is loading fast at about 1.219 seconds.

It seems like search engines have also deindexed the site.  And I do know how that goes.  Internet censorship truly happens.  If they can censor the president of this country, they can censor anybody.

This website still stands not for search engines, but for people.

The Bible App is now complete.

I have rebuilt this and another new forum, using the skills that God allowed me to learn, as I was also trying to help other admins.

To create their own forums so that they can move away from the social media sites who just monetize people through ads.

This website, I am so proud to say, WILL NEVER monetize anybody.

The bible app here, is here to stay, and God will provide me the money to get it to stay as it is.

This website will never ask for donations.  Or tithes.

Anybody who will join this forum who “advertises anything” will be banned.  Period.

People think they can just “pitch” people who call themselves Christians, or pitch “religious” people because they think people who follow Christ are “naive”.

There are true Christ Followers left here on earth, at this present day and age.

But there are a whole lot who are just “namedroppers.”

This website was made possible by God allowing me to go through all my own frustrations as I was seeking fellowship from a true church.

The organization I am still affiliated with, I’ve met some Christ Followers there too, but for some organizational reasons, I felt like fellowship with each other is not encouraged.  Except for when you are on a mission trip.

Also, we had to be careful what we post on social media sites.  Or any mention of their name, it has to pass through them first.  They are of course, being cautious about perception.  Which I do understand.

So I abide by whatever rules they say.

However, when I embark on my own personal mission trips, I can do or say anything that I feel led to do or say.  And I know that these stories can bring to light certain members of our population that are marginalized.  Often forgotten.

And in those mission trips, I answer ONLY to God.

So that was why I put all those articles and shared videos on that other SH portal.

I felt I can do that there, because I can write my own angry and frustrated articles there.

I did not want to “distract” from what this website is supposed to be for.

But today, I am realizing more and more (especially as I was working through “The Prayer Worship” part of this website), that I only need to share my own truths, my own frustration, and how I am finding daily deliverance, from my own self!

No website on planet earth just shows up and appear perfect!

I remember my old personal blog where I was just being my imperfect self.

WRITING with all the typos and grammatical errors.  No editing, just hitting publish.

The person who developed this portal is as imperfect as any lost person trying to find their way to God’s truth.

God draws us to Himself.

What grieves me is how I see so many people deceived by false teachers and false doctrines.

What grieves me is how God’s Words in the bible is used, or twisted, or chopped up, without reverence to what Jesus did for all of us so that He can rescue us all out from the bondage of sin and slavery to deception.

What grieves me is when an abused wife puts up with the abuse of a lost unbeliever husband, thinking she is doing a holy thing “submitting to her husband”, because there was NO mentorship or actual shepherding happening in her church.  But she tithed 10% of her income religiously.

^^ ME too.  🙂

But God had to use another older Christian woman, to explain, what being “yoked with an unbeliever” does, and the “distinction on submission”.

The wife submits to the husband AS THE HUSBAND submits to the Church.

Wake up call for me, that time.

False guilt is a perfect spiritual attack too!

So I am in no position to teach anything, as I am still learning too.

But I can always also share what I have learned along the way.

We should stop with the idolatry and idol worship.

We all can easily fall for that, when we “perceive” that pastors or priests or any leader, can “do no harm” or make no mistakes.

They can share “biblical truths”, but when it gets mixed with falsehoods, then that is when the corruption starts.

Anyone who has a background or knowledge about psychology or psychiatry, or hypnosis, can see what some of them actually do.

Why do you think has the “self development” industry been so lucrative?

Online marketing in organizations use that too.

Businesses use that, and now that churches are ran like businesses, that’s the most dangerous things that are happening.

They are playing with people’s souls.

Businesses are using that to sell products.

Churches are using that to “sell hope” to a hopeless target market.

Of course, until God intervenes to shed light.

Jesus is the Good Shepherd, because there are bad shepherds, false teachers who are dressed in sheep’s clothing. but are actually, ravenous wolves.

I know that there are a whole lot of other true Christ Followers who are learning more and more about the Truth and are coming out of false churches, like I have.

I only have to share the truth about what to “watch out for”, and then they will remember what I said.

You can try to read about Neuro Linguistic Programming.

There are people getting “programmed” without them even knowing about it.

These false teachers feed on people’s raw emotions and in that effort, they disengage the intellect.

When that happens, they can “control” these people.

Evil doesn’t come and announce himself, he just comes to “steal kill and destroy” whatever “little faith” got planted in a person.

That’s why Jesus commands His followers to spread the gospel.

We just plant.  God makes those seeds grow.

Not us and never us.

We plant, and then move on to the next.

Like what I noted on the “timeline” of this website, my “ChristianLifeGroups”, is currently just a website.  And I didn’t believe that the “christian lingo” of “life groups”, that the domain name “ChristianLifeGroups” was available.

It was the perfect domain name for a bible app.

It is my sincerest hope that the main website, where the Old Testament and New Testament is published, that it can help people read the bible more.

No need to download anything, so they will not be followed around.

They can easily search for bible stories easily, as the search functionality is there as well.

That was how it became easier for me to share verses.

Since I read the bible several times, and I have also encoded them onto the website, if my memory would continue to function, then I can share ever so precisely, God’s Words in its purity.

And also, it can also encourage other people to personally read the bible too.

Some people have told me that I should write a book.  I’ve already experienced writing books.  As a ghost writer.  I will not write a book about my experiences about my faith because that would also be like monetizing God’s blessings.

So I will just share them here.

A little bit at a time.

So, I’ll go back to copying and pasting old articles, into specific forums here that I have also set up.

For right now, the Registration is still OFF.  The Forum is still password protected.

I don’t know if people would actually join it, and dare to share their personal walk.

I was having second thoughts about that before, too.  And then I got reminded of what Jesus said, about “Whoever acknowledges Him before men”.

So me now deciding again to share what I share here, or would be sharing here, is my way of acknowledging Jesus, before men.

Jesus saved me, too.  From my own version of hell.

So if you are reading this blog post now, please KNOW that Jesus plays no favorites.  God shows no partiality.

If we pray to Jesus and ask for His forgiveness, ask for genuine repentance, ask for clarity so that He will make known to you about the deception you have been trapped into, and then GET OUT OF IT, turn away from it, ask Jesus to please save you, then He will hear your prayers.

The Holy Spirit will help you through it all.

Read about Jesus and His TRUTH, in the Gospels.

Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.

Because whoever Christ frees, is free indeed.  When you know the Truth, it’s easy to spot the false.